Me

A Privileged Pain

2011-05-05T12:48:00.000-07:00

April 13th 2011 9:51am..a new beginning..a new meaning to our life..our new form to our love...
Little did we expect that the day I completed my 36th week I would be asked to get admitted in the hospital quoting the reason that I had some infection which made the environment not so hostile for the growing foetus.Taken aback we called up
my parents and parents-in-laws informed them and got admitted post 12.00am as my dad is always finicky about Tuesdays.The doctor had instructed her team to help me undergo some fetal heart rate monitoring tests and to induce pain hoping for
the contractions to begin early so that I could deliver the next day without much delay. Contractions were much of an unexplained pain which I had to bear all night just to realize the next day that I had developed an allergy to the gel being used .After a couple of minutes decision was taken by the doctors to delivery my baby in C section and not induce pain for the next stage. My husband and I were asked to sign some papers while the nurses were busy getting me ready for the surgery while I was still wondering if all of this was a dream and if I could catch some sleep before the I got operated as I had not slept even a wink due to the contractions previous night. I tried my best to be as brave as possible and not to shed tears which would make my mom feel all the more weak but unfortunately I could not control myself as I was being put onto the stretcher and when saw my most loved ones around me. Though my husband was allowed inside the operation theater I still was so apprehensive about the whole ordeal that I just wanted it to get over as early as possible.As I was moved into the operation theater I noticed several male and female nurses all set and prepared to handle my delivery. My eyes kept wandering searching for my husband who was to be clad in the same uniform as that of the doctors and nurses present in the Operation Theater. The anesthesiologist realized my anxiety and informed me that my husband would be let in once I’m done with the prescribed dosage of the an anesthesia. I have heard several stories about how C sections are done but now when it was my turn I felt like I was only person in this world who is undergoing all this. The bed were I laid was raised and I was asked to sit with my legs resting on a chair, my eyes still hunting for my husband finally found him outside the glass door looking at me helplessly while the anesthesiologist drew some graphs on my back and finally injected the most miraculous drug into me.It was a terrible feeling that ran up and down my spine like a thousand sharp finger nails being rubbed against a blackboard. I was then asked to lie down and to raise my feet as and when requested by the anesthesiologist..Everytime he asked me to raise my feet I did so without much ado leaving me with a fear that I might undergo the same problem as that of my mother who was given very mild dosage of anesthesia during her C section which made her conscious during the middle of the surgery leading her to feel the pain of her uterus being cut open.Finally at one point of time I realized my lower body was totally numb and that I had totally no sensation. My husband was finally allowed inside who sat right beside my head holding my hands which was tied to monitor my heart rate and the other for some drips. A curtain was placed right in front of my neck as my gynecologist had begun to show the best of her skills. Though I could not see anything was what was happening I could kind of sense it from the way my husband would hold my hand .Everytime he noticed a gush of blood or a deeper cut being made on me he would hold my hand firmer and pat me on my head. At one point of time I felt like my upper body was being pushed towards my jaw and my entire body was jerked badly from left to right several times. In a few seconds from then outcame an outburst of loud cry of our new bundle of joy. I could not control my tears of happiness which flew down my eyes profusely which my husband kept wiping with one hand while his other hand was busy wiping his. I was so thrilled and excited at the biggest wonder of life which was in me for 36 weeks and was finally out as a new form to ourlove.I felt so proud so excited so overwhelmed to have become a mother and felt so privileged to be a Woman. As I was curious to know if it was a boy or a girl baby my husband was excited about the baby having lots of hair, finally the doctor came over to me and said congrats its a male baby..I was right as I was sure that it was a boy baby from my 5th month scan..While I was feeling drowsy my husband was asked to leave the operation theater and I was being cleaned and moved into the post operation ward.Finally when I was in my conscious I was in LRDP suite where I was surrounded with all my relatives congratulating me and my husband.Our son was being kept in the NICU for that entire day since he was 20+ days premature and underweight and my husband was the only person who was allowed to see him. Surprising even after the delivery I had contractions which added to the pain of the postpartum bleeding, surgery and the injection given on my spine. The only thing that alleviated my pain was the pictures and the videos of our baby taken by my husband everytime he went into see him at the NICU.
The next day as I walked to the NICU to nurse my baby I felt like I had just learnt how to walk and I walked like I was walking the first time. I had terrible pain around the area where the surgery was done and in addition to it felt so weak
as I was on a complete liquid diet the previous day and night.Finally when I saw our son and when I nursed him I felt it was worth all the pain that I had undergone during conception ,pre and post delivery.I was discharged from the hospital on
the 4th day and we carried our new bundle of joy to my parents-in laws place first and then came to my parents home.
All through my married life I always considered my husband to my first child,my best friend,my guide,my role model...but this entire ordeal of pregnancy,labour,surgery,delivery,post partum I realized that my husband is also my mother.The kind of help, support and deeds he did was something that only a mother would willing do for her child.
I feel so good to be a mother and to have 2 mothers in my life :)

Im addicted to you dont you know that your toxic!!

2010-11-12T23:50:00.000-08:00

Yes Im Addicted..this addiction started way back in Jan 2007 and it has been growing in leaps and bounds since then..I know everyone wants to get out their addictions but this is something I would want to thrive inside me and enjoy for the rest of my life.Sounds weird but yes I love this addiction of mine and I hope it grows for ever.Im addicted to my Husband..yes..Im so addicted to him that I realised how much of an impact it had on me when he was away for 10 days during this US travel.For many it was just a matter of few days but for me each day was a decade to live just to catch him on the webcam chat every night.
I would wake up each day missing his strong arms holding me firmly and every night as I went to bed I would miss falling asleep in his broad shoulders talking about how my day was at work.I missed the way he drove me to work in no time, I missed him ironing my clothes every day,keeping my footware out of the shoe rack.I just missed him fidgeting with the gadgets,I missed everything about him....
For those 10 days when my husband was away, I would console each morning when I made breakfast saying that Sanju doesnt want to eat oats today so I need to make breakfast only for me.When I prepared chapatis for lunch I would soothe myself saying Sanju would eat at work.My husband and I eat together most of the time when we are at home and we share a single glass of water(wink).But during his absence I would say myself that he is held up with some important release at work and hence he is not there with me for dinner.When I prepared milk at night I would tell myself that sanju is too full today to drink milk and hence I need to make only for myself.But the reality of he not being next to me would hit me the most when I would go to sleep around 2.00amish realising the fact that I have been fooling myself all day just to survive through the hard truth of he living miles away from me missing me as much as I do.
I would wait endlessly for 9.30pm IST when he would be online on the webcam , every glimpse of him would bring a tear to my eye and his question would be why are you so dull today..Yes I was extremely dull as I lived like a vegetable though I had so many loving people around me at home.I missed him ..missed him badly..missed him more than during our courtship days...
The day he returned was the most glorious day I had ever lived till then...my man was back with loads of love and goodies for me...Ever since then we have been making up for each nano-second that we missed each other...I really love him..Little did I ever expect that I will be so much so head over heels in love with someone but yes this MAN..my MAN (blink blink) has made it happen my life....
Now he is the Toxic , a lovable toxic that Im addicted to forever...

Mixed Feelings

2010-01-07T01:18:00.000-08:00

Feeling weird,happy,sad,hopeful,confused all at the same time.Its time for me to move on from my current employer to another phase of my life.Priorities change as you mature and so does your job.It was around the sametime last year I was wondering if I had made the right decision with my choice of employer but I realise that it was a great place to work for.On the professional front I have definately improved a lot on my domain and technical abilities and on the personal I have gained quite a few friends and my encounter with them is something that Im going to cherish for a very long time.
The hectic sprints,long work hours,working on weekends,healthy arguments with peers,war rooms,planning meetings... all seems be a wonderful experience in my stint here.2010 seems to be offering me new challenges right from the very begining of the year I just hope and pray that Im able to handle every oppoutunity I take with a pinch of salt and handle them successfully.I would be getting back home tomorrow leaving behind my laptop,access card,Id card...
Im going to be a housewife for the next couple of days before I actually step out into another new world waiting to offer me its own good and bad.

Happiness comes in small packages

2009-08-21T02:58:00.000-07:00

Nothing can irritate you more than your husband waking you up saying "Get up...you need to prepare breakfast and lunch,your already late".Well this is how my day begun today!!To add on to it as we drove to work the traffic was a total mess worse than usual.. reached late for my meeting and saw people dispersing from the meeting room while I was panting for breath ..Opened mylaptop and the battery was completely drained out..Finally it boots and boom!! blue screen..I tried the 1st step of troubleshooting "Hard Restart"..it worked..good for me.Feeling extermely thirsty I went to the pantry to fill my water bottle..no water in any of those cans..Informed the admin incharge who advices to me to use the water from the coffee vending machine which is boiling hot.Argh!!!Totally frustrated started my work which added on to my existing irritation with all the last minute changes to be incorporated and no ready to work environments.It was just about the time for me to leave for lunch and I noticed this mail from my husband in my inbox.It was an old mail that he had replied to while we were in courtship.Its basically a questionaire that your dear ones fill it up with details about you...Below is the email and it made my day :)

-----Original Message-----

From: Sivanandam, Sanjeev

Sent: Wednesday, June 20, 2007 11:06 PM

To: 'Subashini D'Subject: RE: reply

BE HONEST
1. My name:
Subashini D

2. Where did we meet?:
We met virtually on shaadi.com and inperson at Panchami :)

3. How long have you known me?:
6 months

4. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:
A Lot

5. When you first saw me what was your first impression?
She was a cute girl and I wished that you'll accept me.

6. Mi birthday?: [compulsory field] 27th DEC 1982

7. Color Hair?: Black

8. Color eyes?: Black

9. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met?
Hi,Hello,blushing,Car Parking and above all remove my glasses

10. What ? s my fav type of music?:
Tamil and English Songs (Hot Ones with nice beats)

11.What ? s one of my fav things to do outdoors?:
Eat and Shop

12. Am I shy or outgoing?
Somewhat shy :)

13. Would you consider me a friend?:
More than that

14. Have you ever seen me cry? If yes, when?:
I havent seen u cry but I knew u cried several times.Your voice said that

15. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?
Cutiee

16.I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me?
Yes

AM I ??? . ?!?!?!?
17. Quiet or loud?
Loud

18. Short or Tall:
Medium :)

19.Weird or original:
Weird

20. Smart or stupid?
Smart at times silly and stupid many a time

21. Boring or Fun?
Fun

22. Attractive or Unattractive?
Attractive

DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)
23.A psycho?
NO

24.Athlethic?
NO

25. A nerd?
NO

26. Two-faced?
NO

27.Immature?
YES

28. Mature?
NO still to learn a lot

JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
29. What is the worst thing about me?
Your possessiveness and silliness

30. When is my birthday?
Answered in Q6

31. Who is my best friend?
Santosh - in boys Rajini/Arthi/Priya/Praneta/Shamita/Jayshree ( I don't think u have one best friend as such) these girls are all ur good friends

32. What song(if any)reminds you of me?
DDLJ - Meri Kabo Mein too Aya

33. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
Not really

34. If you could rename me, what would my name be?
Anjali S

35. A feature that you like about me as a person:
Your cute round chubby face and ur smile

36. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
My Happiness

37. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be?
Awesome

38. What word do I say all the time?
PODA

39. Is there anything you ? d like to say to me?
I Love u and Thanks for being a part of my life.

Random Thoughts that run across you!!

2009-08-10T07:11:00.000-07:00

There are people who talk to you with sugar coated words ...they make you feel like your the best in whatever you do..but at the same time they are capable enough to switch gears and talk ill about you behind your back.I dont know if its for the same reason or what but I have learnt to be immune to compliments over a period of time. I really dont have to do things to impress someone or to prove my standards. I know what I am capable of and also of my shortcomings,Im happy with the way I am and I really dont need false praises to get work done out of me.
Sometimes you really dont know whats running on your mind but your so stressed out that you just pen down some random thoughts running in your mind.To be frank Im really exhausted...I have no words to explain how tired every cell in my body feels.The physical strain on me seems to be much more than the mental one. I think I need a break ,I need a day all for myself where I do nothing but just sleep or pamper myself.
The more you work the more is offloaded to you...and there is absolute no consideration or a waiver whatsoever for multitasking in trying to achieve a satiable amount of worklife balance.Another challenge is to deal with the stereotypes.They are so reluctant to change that they develop a sense of insecurity to adapt.My theory is simple,if you expect me to something let me do it in my way,dont expect me to change to your comfort.If you want me to change Im not in game,please do it your way and I have no qualms about it.
Btw Im extermely hungry now and have nothing to eat :(

Jab We All Met

2009-05-05T02:05:00.000-07:00

I was walking back to my building after lunch and for some reason I was recollected about this most beautiful moment of my life...the 1st time San,his parents and relatives had come home to see me..I still remember the day like it happend just a few hours ago..San's mom called us & informed that they would come over to our place around 6pm,it was a Sunday evening a very beautiful evening..my most memorable one that I cherish till date..Usually the prospective grooms intentionally do not arrive on time just to build up their price & I hated it...I hated it more because my dad always insisted I drape a saree,put flowers and wear some gold jewels..so I had to put up an act of what Im actually not till the prospective groom and his folks left & now I had to stay in this attire and wait for them ...There were times when we would actually give up while the groom's parents would call up with a silly explaination about the bad traffic or not being able to locate our house...Admist such grooms ,San being called as the walking clock called up our home at 5.50pm at a location that will would take less than 10 mintutes to reach our home asking us to guide them the way to our home.My brother instantly reached the place in no time & gained all the attention and the good name by his humble ,friendly and emphathatic attitude.He managed to impress everyone in San's family including San accumulating pressure on me to be all the more the so called "good girl"..yeah right me and good :p contact San for more details....Anyways San and his family stepped into our house when the clock struck 6pm & I could actually see San's deep sense of satisfaction for having lived up to the name of being called a walking clock. While my parents greeted them ,a self introduction session had started while I had all the butterflies in the world flying inside my stomach.San was not the 1st first groom had I seen..I have seen several weird ones and smart ones too ;) hehe but still you when its the special one its always a little bit of overreaction and exaggeration...While I was in the kitchen nibbling on some snacks that was kept to be served for San and his family I was also listening to what they were talking..There were a lot of loud trumphets being blown about San in Dolby Stereo effect & I was like "Oh really..."Finally came the time when my dad said "Subha come" and I hoped I was deaf for a moment not to hear it or blind so that I dont see the way they stare at me from head to toe.Since San & I had already met near my office a few days ago I was saved from being in a saree or flowers or the extra jewels since I had told my dad that San does like such show off and he wants me appear like the way I am..and for once my dad heeded.I had no clue how I managed to walk from the kitchen to the hall all I remember was San was sitting at a position which was facing the kitchen door & he got to see me first & he pretended like he was seeing me for the first time..I remember my bro giggling as I sat with a huge thud on the sofa next to my mother-in-law and smiled at all.I realised that I forgot to say "Namaste" which I had rehearsed n times all day .So while everyones eyes were stuck on me with their smiles I abruptly said "Namaste" and gave a funny giggle at my brother who was laughing at me with his mute button on.Then started my FIL with his regular questions about schooling,college,engineering,blah blue...while the ladies were busy observing me from every angle I saw my San with a cheeky look listening to me talk ..What surprised me the most was once my FIL stopped firing questions at me, San started like as if he knew nothing about me..I said to myself..Gosh your such a good actor...I was like yeah right and answered his questions like I was answering them for the 1st time & patted myself saying "Im also a good actor". As my dad took a tour of everyone around the house San decided to sit and talk to me..this was when he was my San..took a hop skip and jump and landed sitting right next to me with his eyes at the duplex part of my house to ensure no on was peeping at us...Finally I had to literally push him to take a tour of the house along with others which he did reluctantly...Finally as they left San turned around saying "Bye Subashini" with a sweet glint in his eyes..thats it I knew he was my man for now and forever....

Sometimes my MIL and I talk about this day and she says what she liked about me the most was that I kept smiling throughout even though I was nervous...and what I liked the most about my MIL was she never asked me any questions but kept smiling not then nor now....

Patience is the Key

2009-01-28T08:21:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the decisions we take at our most impulsive state of mind lands up in a regret.However there are occations where as you endure you bear the fruit of it.The duration from the time you realise that you have taken a hasty decision till the time you either accept & endure OR till you call it a quit is pretty much disturbing which takes a toll on several faces of your life or even on your day to day activities...Sometimes your so preoccupied analysing if there is anything you could probably do make yourself feel better you tend to forget the most vital attributes of your life.You forget yourself & forget to cherish some beautiful moments.But if you could look back at your past & analyse that you have actually gone through similar phase earlier you feel a little better because your endurance was actually fruitful . What if I endure now hoping for my past to repeat & I land up nowhere??OR what with this current state of mind I take another decision which may turn out to be favourable or may land me into deeper shit..
There has been several beautiful moments that I have encountered in my life since my last post but for some reason or the other I was just not able to cherish it beyond a point because there is something nagging me constantly ... Im not sure where what went wrong..I was very happy when I took the decision..it was purely mine ..yet I dont know if Im actually regretting or if Im just hoping things would get solved over a period of time...Over a period of time...this is one term that Im unable to define....Im not sure if this is a phase to make me stronger or weaker....My conscious says "Patience is the key to this phase" ...I just hope the next time I login to blogger I have something good to post unlike this one .....

Bye Bye 2008

2008-12-31T04:46:00.000-08:00

As Im at my new job now doing up some reading while the major part of my brain is planning the menu for the evening that San & I are going to spend..I cant beleive that in a few more hours we all would be in 2009.Wow..really exciting time files faster than anything in this world...Here is a glimpse my 2008

1)Learnt to Drive got a DL too :)
2)Got a new job
3)Travelled out of India on a vacation..
4)Refused an onsite oppoutunity with no regrets
5)Learnt to drape a saree
6)Managed not to increase my weight :)...neither decrease :(
7)cleaned up my wardrobe 2 BIG times
8)Learnt to cook..to some extent..can manage even if my MIL is not around..
9)Bought more watches than clothes
10)Learnt to pay Literature..I owe this one to Praveen & Raji ;)
11)Saw more movies in the theater than at home
12)For the first time did road side-shopping at Malleshwaram,ate pizza for Rs.10
13)Fought terribly with a collegue..
14)Managed to keep my husband's temper cool even in his worst turn-off moments..
15)Accidentially dropped my cellphone in the thailand beach on our wedding anniversary:(
16)Trimmed my hair more no. of times than my nails.
17)Added more soft toys to our room.
18)Have gotten San to see more tamil movies than any other language
19)Met my close friend's daughter
20)Adviced my ex-mentor on the importance of living with in-laws..
21)Been to an orphanage & an oldage home..
22)Taught my maid's kids
23)Crashed the desktop at home..yeah yeahh the 64bit - Vista one..
24)Made new friends
25)Visited my dentist for filling
26)....

This is all I can recollect for now....I just hope 2009 is more peaceful & exciting to all of us..
wishing you all a very happy & prosperous 2009 :)

Twenty Guidelines for a happy married life

2008-12-02T21:42:00.000-08:00

Below are some guidelines & lessons that I have practised & learnt out of my 1 year of married life..With the number of differences my husband & I own & living in a closely knit famly I wonder who has done the most compromises..The truth is that neither of us compromised on anything..We accepted each other , our goodness & our shortcomings & found that life is more beautiful than we expected it to be ..and life gets more & more beautiful with each new day & night...

No 1. It is better to remain quiet at times than to use unwise choice of words.
Im sure we all wished if life had a rewind button,we could go back in time..correct things & get back.unfortunately technology is yet to improve to that extent. The only way to solve this problem is to keep our big fat mouth shut & let things solve by itself or to open up when the heat has reduced.

No 2. Set your priorities right.
It is a blunt truth but we have to accept it.Once married your first priority & also your first point of contact for everything becomes your spouse.Your entire life revolves with the only goal of keeping him/her happy.Happiness is not about being happy its about making others happy is very apt atleast when it comes to your spouse.
But when situation demands you might have to juggle within your list of priorities but even then at the end of it make sure your spouse is happy with whatever you have decided.

No 3. Maintain your uniqueness.
Every individual is unique in their own way.We first need to identify,appreciate & celebrate our own uniqueness.Be proud of what you are.You may not be the best in everything but you will definitely be unique in certain aspects.Dont not give up your uniqueness.Command respect from it.

No 4. Learn to say NO .
This is a very tough one I agree,but if you can implement it life gets easier.You don’t have to get involved in unnecessary complications with just use the 1 simple 2 letter word . What matters the most here is the way you put it across..you may use a trillion sentences to convey the message or just the 1 word but make sure the message is conveyed to the right person at the right time & at the right scenario.

No 5. Your family comes first.
However good,caring,helpful blah blue may be the people around you..always remember that your family comes first.Please your family before your please others.At the end of the day its your family who will care for you more than the others.If you have an issue it’s a topic to gossip for others but a true problem for your family.Hence whatever said & done your family is of utmost importance & value to you than any other.Its good to be selfish atleast when it comes to your family.Its a bitter truth which is accepted & followed by many but behind closed doors.

No 6.Accept people the way they are.
There is nothing in the world as a IDEAL.Everyone have their own shortcomings.We must learn to help people overcome their shortcomings & take things with a pinch of salt.Life is a less complicated when you begin to accept than to compromise.

No 7.Change is good ,provided its for a good cause.
Change is inevitable .If a change in you is going to bring about goodness in and around you then you jolly well change than looking for reasons.

No 8.You cannot please everyone around you.
There are no two people in this world who have the similar likes & dislikes.Hence you need not satisfy everyone around you.If there is something well within your means ..go ahead..else it is just not worth it.Instead please yourself & your spouse.

No 9.Give the devil its due.
Everyone has a certain tolerance level.If things go beyond it no human can bear it.This is when your spouse needs to understand it & stand by you.

No 10.Respect others views.
As much as you would expect one to respect your views you need to understand & respect theirs.You don’t have to impose yours on them nor should they impose theirs on you.Everyone has the right to express what they feel ,it is very subjective to an individual & no one has any right to moderate it.

No 11.Stay in touch.
The only force that binds people to keep in touch is gratitude.True that certain oppourtunitists get in touch with you only at times of need but time will speak one day for such people who would actually regret.

No 12 .Try not to overdo things.
This is a very useful lesson & the I owe this to my good old fren Pranky.Often newly wedded brides or groom overdo certain deeds to please their in laws but as time flies it gets too stressful for them to live upto that expectation .This is when the rift slowly begins finally landing you & your spouse with bitter feelings for the rest of your life.

No 13 .Speak up if there is displeasure
If there is something which is not very pleasant to either your ears or eyes ,it would best to make your spouse aware of it at the right time.It makes no sense keeping it within yourself & brooding which eventually will develop into a burst of anger causing a bitter feeling between you & your spouse.Here your spouse needs to trust you because you obviously cant capture things in a video & produce as an evidence like in the movies.

No 14.Respect ones privacy & space
If a person does not wish to disclose something it means they don’t want to its as simple as that.Let them live that way ,don’t try to dominate or pressure them to spill out…its totally unethical.

No 15.Avoid talking ill of one behind their back.
It is totally unpractical for anyone to like / love everyone.There may be few people who may not fit in your kind of tempo or you do not feel the positive vibes when that person is around, but that does not mean you go around talking ill about them or backbite or mock at them in their absence or hate them.It is better to avoid such people & discussions about them with just a smile.

No 16.Avoid discussing your family problems with anyone outside the family.
Most issues occur in a family when people discuss their problems with everyone under the sun except for the one around whom the issues reolves.Once married any issue that arises should be discussed & sorted out between them than running around for help/advice from their respective parents & friends. People can only give you suggestions but its you who is going to bear the consequences so it is best to discuss the problem amongst themselves & make sure no family issues go out of the 4 walls.As mentioned ealier an issue is a topic of gossip for everyone but it’s a true problem only for the family members.

No 17.Maintain your identity
You are what you are.You don’t have to be someone else to please another.Just be yourself & life would be more than just perfect.

No 18.Call a spade a spade
Sometimes the way you convey things matters but at the sametime beating around the bush just complicates matters.Its better to be upfrount,staright & frank in calling a spade a spade.The magnitude or the intensity of a committed mistake should not increase or decrease based on your relationship with the person.I recollect this saying in tamil which translates to "If the mother-in-law breaks it, it is a mud pot. If the daughter-in-law breaks it, it is a golden pot."This is where ones needs to stand-up to be point-blank & straight.

No 19. Accept your mistake
People are bound to make mistakes & learn lessons out of them. It is anyday better to accept your mistake with a profound humble apology than actually finding excuses or a scapegoat or arguing over it. Every mistake you commit teaches you a wonderful new lesson for a life-time hence you need not be ashamed or feel guilty for it..instead learn & mature from it.

No 20.Dont let a 3rd person dictate your life
You & your spouse are the master / mistress of your life.Do not entertain any one else dicate .The other person may be your well-wisher or he/she may even be the fox but its your life & its solely in your hands to shape it the way you want it to be.

The list is actually never ending because with every new incident you encounter you learn a new lesson..Im sure I will come back with more newer guidelines & lessons sooner or later:)

Beware of the fox around you!!

2008-11-18T04:48:00.000-08:00

The world is dominated by teasers & cheeky people.They get to you to confuse you by using methods of meaness & by kindness.
Being mean to you in moment & suddenly changing roles & becoming nice they actually intensify your guilt feelings ,for being rude to them when they were mean to you.In that way you are made to beleive that you are wrong all along.And if you are an emotional person they wouldnt hesitate to even reveal their darkest of secrets to draw your symphathy..
But this is when you need a hard kick on your butt to realise that your in a corporate world surrounded by foxes.It is true that such people climb up the corporate ladder faster than the other sincere ones but the credit goes to their MBA..i mean the Master of Butter Application..
As the saying goes birds of the same feather flock together..I would alter it to say Donkeys with the same stupidity work togehter..If one does a mistake the other does a bigger one to coverup for the first one..

Some worthy guidelines to help one counteract with such foxes
1)If you are right,make sure you have the last laugh / word.
2)Save all email & chat conversations..even the most trivial of conversation may turn out to be your saving grace.
3)Do not hesitate to escalate if things get worse.
4)Avoid using "please" , "thankyou" , "hi" ,"regards" for such a foxes who are just not worth it.
5)Read your replies several times & make sure the evidence to prove yourself is 100% correct to snub the fox royally.
6)Do not commit or provide any specific deadlines..if you have to then let them be subjective or make sure that their are acheievable well within your means.
7)Do not overdo things.
8)Remember that at the end of the day she/he is just an animal in the wilderness & you have no guilt feelings for she/he deserves it.
9)Do not entertain phone calls or chats in personal messengers for they might try to use your kindness.
10)Always remember that she/he has exploited your goodness & they deserve nothing more than a royal cornering.
11)Never trust them ever again in the future for such people make very good double-edged swords & remember they are the wolf in sheep's clothing.

A human who does not have the attitude to gratitude is worse than a parasite!!!

At work

2008-11-08T10:57:00.000-08:00

Looks like Im offlate obessesed with blogging in respect to conversations..however here is one which I recollect at work...

X: Can you check this & mail it to me before 4pm
Y : Give me sometime

After a little while

x : Im still waiting
Y : Im busy will send it to you by 5pm
X : (For various reasons) No I cant wait till then please send it before 5pm
Y : (Loses temper ) Im not jobless here..I am doing a lot of work ..I have just 2 hands and Im not a ROBERT
X : (ROFL -rolling on the floor and laughing)... Its ROBOT my dear not ROBERT
Y : yeah whatever!!!

Update to my previous post

2008-11-07T11:19:00.000-08:00

So I come up with an update to my previous post

My husband finally comes to pick me & Im all sheepish and embarassed wondering how am I actually going to tackle the situation..& then our conversation begins

My Cell rings

Me: Tell me Sanju..shall I come to the gate?
San : Yeah come to the gate..

I was at the door while I see the car in frount of the door & not the gate...I was all thrilled & with a big smile got into the car..

San : Come in darling (with a sweet glint in his eye)
Me : Im sorry Sanju..I have embarassed you once again...
San : Its ok...now tell me what did you give me when you met me at the airport when I returned from US.
Me:hmmmmmm you mean **ss..
San:No ..Im talking about the moment you met me..
Me:hmmm my dad gave you a bear hug
San:Noo..Im talking about you
Me:hmmmmmmmm hmmmmmm
San: Think think...
Me: Ahhh I gave you a single red rose which had a long stalk...
San : Yeahh correct...(Hands me over a similar..more beautiful ..red rose)
Me:Awww this is soooo cute of you....least expected..(It was only then I noticed that San was driving with just one hand ..holding the rose in the other)
San:Yeah...I felt bad for having scolded & grounded you....
Me:I told you Im sorry & my apology was very humble..
San:I stopped the car at this place & bought it all for you....
Me:Ohhh that soo sweet of you...
San:Yeahh you too careless & you need to work on it..
Me:Yeah..that because I depend on you for everything..
San:Noo that not good dear...
Me:WOW Im going to preserve this rose for a lifetime..........

Zoommmmmmmm off we speed off to our sweet home where the night turned out to be all the more special by Monica's (San's cousin sister) dance performance after a sumptous dinner or mutton biryani,prawns fry & fish curry......Im sure this dance performace of Moni is going to be a surprise to my dear BIL Praveen ..
@Praveen : Our next gettogether will be inaugrated with Moni's peformance followed by our usual Kuuthu hehehe :)

The day actually ended in a very memorable way.....& rose is in my cupboard where I keep my jewels...yeah its more precious than my jewels... :)

Mistakes do happen..but shouldnt I be learning from them??

2008-11-07T06:12:00.000-08:00

Have you ever repeated a mistake ?? Especially when instructions are given to you like a parrot & you still commit the same mistake...Well Ive been a victim of this several times & trust me its the most embarassing situation..worst when it is something which involves your loved ones & emotions in it..Im into one right now ..repeating the same mistake in a timeframe of less than 48 hours & I dont know how Iam going to over come it..Well this day didnt end in a very pleasant way like it started atleast for this reason..There are a lot of uncertainities at work too & I hoping for the coming week to be more promising ..I still have a couple of more hours to call the day off..I just hope things get better once I reach home...My MIL has prepared prawns & I love sea food..so as I hope the dinner going to make me feel better my painful wisdom tooth just reminded me of the awful pain Im going through now...
Will making a note of the mistakes repeated in the past & looking at it every morning help me...OR just a profound humble apology will...I dont know Im totally confused ....WORDS just dont help when it comes to emotions...

Update : My husband just called me & told me that he forgot his lunch box at work..I need to confirm from my MIL if he has done the same in the past..so I dont have to repent for what I did today..hehehe..Atlast I see some light in this dark evening....Happy Weekend... :)

Conversations

2008-11-06T06:30:00.001-08:00

Some unforgettable moments on my anniversary

Location : Pattaya,Royal Orchard
Scene : San being the early bird he is gets up earlier than me & is almost done with his bath.I manage to open my eyes to see the time which is around 8.00am & decide to walk out of the bed.
San comes out of the bathroom ,all fresh & with a clean shaved & happy face..Hugs me & wishes me happy anniversary while I snuggle into this broad hairy chest just hoping he would say..its ok sleep for another 1hour..

San : I washed my hair today..
Me : Ohh!! did you use the shampoo that was here
San : Yes..its smells very good & I used the moisturiser too
Me : Ohh!! Wow no wonder your skin is actually glowing...
San : (All confused)...my skin...I shaved & just used the after shave...
Me : Then where did you use the moisturiser
San : For my hair obviously..
Me: WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
San : What what
Me : Moisuturiser is for the skin ..its conditioner for the hair..
San : (With all the sheepish look in the world) Ohh yaa I got confused...(Whining)
Me : ha ha ha ha ha ( A laughther of a life time)

Location : Coral Island,Pattaya
Scene : With my heart in my mouth everytime we changed boats till we reached the shore ,we got into the water to play...After sometime I decided to walk back to the shore to sit for a while in the shade..

San : Photo time sweetie!!!..go stand in the water I'll take some pics of you
Me : (With all Grins) yeahh go ahead

After about 5min I felt something irritating in my pocket..

Me : Oops my cellphone...
San : Shucks...give to me...God...i can actually squeeze the water out of the cellphone..looks like its dead
Me : (All whining)
San : Dont worry lets dry it in the sun for a while & see if it works.

We then had to sit down in the sun with my cellphone completely dismantled & dried it on my shoes..

San : Dont worry I'll buy you a new one when we go to Singapore..its just a few more days to go (cuddles me)..
Me : No..I dont want a new one..Im very emotionally attached to this phone..my brother's gift for my birthday..& how could I be so careless...(In tears)
San : (Gives a big bear hug)...We shall take it to any of the motorola workshop & try our best to fix it..if nothing works ..you may have to use another phone...
Me : Ohhh..I just hope it works...(whining again)
San : Ok now you please dont tell this to your parents or your brother or else you brother will buy you another one by this coming birthday.
Me : hmm ok will not let anyone know..

Once we reached bangalore..I told my in laws about what had happened to my cellphone & Im now using my husband's older phone..My parents came home last night to see me & we showed them our photos once my in laws were done with showing thier Europe tour pics.
As we came to the snap which was taken at the Coral Island where the miserable thing happened to my phone..my FIL said "Ohh Subha..so this is the place where your cell phone got spoilt." San & I were like Ohhh shucks….. Immediately my parents & bro were like "U dropped ur cellphone & lost it "..I felt embarassed & managed to say…the phone has fallen sick & needs to be treated its neither dead nor lost...

Common Conversations

Also here is something which is a very common scene when San I go to any restaurant to eat..San is extremely fast in whatever he does..& when it comes to eating he is ultra-fast.Many a times it turns out to be embarassing in marriage halls because my husband wipes out the banana leaf at the same speed at which the food is being served..leaving the person serving the food in total confusion ..but when the person notices me next to my husband with the entire menu on my leaf untouched with my talks going on & he would understand….

Scene : San & I order a meal & we are served at the sametime.I start talking from the time I see him & its still going on & on .Im not even 1% done with my food & San is actually waiting for the finger bowl.

San : Eat slowly..no hurry take your time.
Me : (Grin with a spoonful of food in my mouth,chewing every atom by atom..relishing every bit & then finally a big swallow & a gulp of water).. Ok so u know today this dame XXXX is so stupid….blah blah blah..& you know what...
San : Eat Eat
Me : OK (another spoonful in mouth) & you know this lady….blah blah..blah..
San : ohhh..Eat Eat Eat (looks at the wall clock in this wrist)
Me : blah blah blah
San : Eat fast Shubu
Me :OK (2 more spoons in mouth..longer time to chew)….blah blah..blah
San:Asks the waiter for the bill
Me :blah blah blah
San : Are you going to finish it or shall I feed you…
Me : I think Im too full to eat now..
San : You talk more than what you eat…
Me:Yeah right you eat faster than I talk...

This is also one conversation in my family that I recollect quite often & have a good laugh..

Scene : My husband & I were having breakfast in the dining hall on a Sunday morning & my FIL was watching TV & MIL was in the Pooja Room or the loo not to sure where was at the time.

San : What's for lunch today Shubu?
Me : Fish
San :What fish?
Me : Pomfret
San : Which on black or white?
Me : I don’t know ask Maami..
San's Dad : Its Black
San : Why didn’t you buy the white one?
San's Dad : We have never bought the white one..we always buy the black one
San : No no I have seen Mummy prepare white pomfrets several times what are you talking Daddy..ask Mummy if you want
Me : Controlling my laughing as I was admiring the clash of their egos..
San : Maaa Maaa…Mama..Mama come Mama
San's Mom : What ??why are you screaming?
San : Maa havent we bought White pomfret in the past…Daddy is saying we always buy Black Pomfert ..
San's Mom : Yeah we have been buying only the Tender or Real Good Chicken for quite a few years now…
San & Me : (Looked at each other paused for a moment burst out laughing at like MAD)
San's Mom : Hey why are you guys laughing ..share the joke with me too…let me also have a laugh
Me : Nothing Maami….nothing….
San : Maa what are we talking & what are you replying….. ( continues laughing)

The pleasure of Dependency

2008-10-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hey how do we do this?Is this the right way to do it?Oh please wait Im not sure I need to ask X
before I start..Well all these are some of the questions which is sweet music to a person who has
created a dependency.This reminds me of one of my collegue in my former employer who never shared her knowledge..her theory was simple I had a tough time to learn & all that I have gained is purely from my hardwork & how could you acquire the same with zero effort.This is one way by which people create dependency.The other way is "spoon feeding" people think they are making ones life easy by teaching them letter by letter or word by word.Thirdly people are not ready to give up their crown & throne to the next generation..
In most of the companies one of the performance metric is to have created a dependency which
actually implies to what extent people can count on you for help..this exists as long as you are
part of the project/company.But if you decide to move out either from the project/company it is
purely your duty to complete a sound knowledge transfer so that the next person who will be
replacing you has no qualms.But the problem here occurs when people want to leave the dependency impressions of themselves.They feel very proud when their ex-collegues call them up or mail them asking for help.Sometimes inevitably inspite of having delivered a sound KT help is seeked which is acceptable as long as the person who delivers KT does his/her job with no intention of having to create a dependency.Unfortunately not many think this way..be it in a corporate world or domestically..people enjoy the feeling of having created a dependency.
A family is bond by values,emotions,culture & tradition.Emotional dependency is very much
acceptable since as humans we get emotionally insecure & weak many a times & all we look for is a helping hand and soothing words of comfort.But what about other dependencies which makes you handicap of certain vital skills.I recollect the saying which says "Practise makes a person perfect" but when you dont have an oppoutunity to even try where does practise comes,here
1)Your losing your skills
2)Your losing your confidence level on the domain
3)You feel it is tough
4)You no longer want to think about it
5)You lose interest
6)Finally you give it up

I also recollect a saying which says "Oppoutunity does not knock ones door". Yes I agree one needs to go out seeking for it.In a corporate world you could escalate this issue & probably a poor
performance in an evaluation done post the KT will itself show the quality of knowledge
transfer.But domestically it is different because here emotions comes into picture..and its not
like in the corporate world where your attributes are measured aganist numbers.One of my friend claims to be proud of the fact that her sister who is in US on a short visit calls her everyday just to memorise a receipe.She takes pride in having created the dependency
where her sister needs her help even if he has to make chapatis.Having known the fact that there will be situations in the future where she cant cook for her..she should have trained her on how to cook independently.Instead she cooked everyday & enjoyed the compliments of being called the best sister & cook & she was never satisfied with it.What she should have done or said is..Well my dear sister I have had enough compliments of being a good cook & I now resign from it & want you to pick up the skills from me so that you dont suffer in the future or blame me for having spoilt you.On questioning her as to why dint she teach her atleast some basics she said I would finish all the cooking much before she would even get up from her bed.When asked why she did that she said I wanted to finish up with all my cooking as early as possible & I didnt wanted to trouble anyone.I partially appreciate her for being considerate but now she has made her sister handicap in her culinery skills which is actually giving her a hard time.So inspite of being the best sister & cook she has failed in her duties.Fortunately she is an open-minded girl who accepted the fact that yes she did create a dependency & made up her mind that she would also teach her husband basics of cooking :)
I just hope people realise the fact that yes I have lived enough & earned enough pride for my
goodness in every aspect of my portfolio & now let me help others in earning the same.It is better if someone utilises the knowlegde than it being lying in dust after ones existence.Just imagine if all our teachers or lectures had the same idealogy ... if they had always spoon
fed us .. never let us code anything we would have been in soup by now...or imagine a lecturer
who asks you to code & much before you even decide on the logic he gives you a hardcopy of the
code & says see this is how you do it & worse if he intrudes when you type every single line &
says no no this not how you do it n this is how you do it...Im sure anyone would be like DAMNNN
you do the coding youself & rest in peace & probably you would also slam the door & walk out...As Im composing this ultra-long post I hear this guy in my neighbouring cubicle who is talking to his team member who is on a vacation asking her word by word, step by step of minute details of his work...I remember seeing her always spoon feeding him & she has never let him debug all by himself ever..Phewwwww!!!

Ive done it finally!!!

2008-07-31T06:35:00.000-07:00

Ive done it finally!!!
Ever since I started driving to work with or without my husband beside me Im extermely cautious.I had never caused any bruise or dent to neither our car nor anybody elses except one incident where I almost touched my neighbour's car but nothing really really happened and my car stood just about 1mm from the neighbour's car...Anyway it was just another day of me taking the car out of the portico & park it right in frount of the gate & say "Sanju lets go its already 9.30 I have to be at 10 for my meeting" Ohh yeah Sanju is now slack on time..didnt know the my laziness can be so contagious..or may be is it that he does most the work for me & it gets late for him eventually....so now back to what happened that day..As usual I did my prayer before starting the car ,drove out of the portico but but but but God knows what made me think for a fraction of second that I took a complete right turn assuming I would be able to park it in an even better position.. .. result my car slightly touched the right side of the compound wall & leaving a long neat bruise...:( :(It doesnt look very evident though but yeahh noticeble & may be even the others too could notice it if they look with more intensity... My poor cute MIL was pacifying me saying all this is very common & there was nothing for me to feel bad..while my husband smiled at me & said there you go my child you've done it finally...This sentence of his took me to back to a week ago when my husband hit our Indigo Grand aganist the left side of our compound wall , not only causing a dent but also breaking the corners of the wall..About 2 days earlier than this incident of my husband's, my FIL got a bruise on the same Indigo Grand while driving very close to the road divider...I then told my husband "You drive for more than 15 years & your dad for more than 30 years & you guys still come back home with some dent in the car unlike me" .. I realised I casted eyes on my ownself :p ....And while I drove to work my husband said "Yeah we all make mistakes in judgement but that doesnt mean we are bad drivers"...hehe my husband now includes me in the list of good drivers after casuing a damage to the car...btw he rated me 8/10 for today's driving :)

The actual ME!!

2008-07-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

As I was drving to work this morning with my husband beside me.He asked me this question "How would you like it if we settle in US or be there for a while?" I said well in terms of savings not much as we are able to do the same here may be a lil more or less.But true it would be great to live in a place where the quality of life is good,traffic & lane discipline is awesome & ya if we plan to have kids in the near future we might as well make life easy for them if they want to pursue their higher studies in US.His next question was..how would you take it having to manage the house all by yourself ,prepare breakfast,lunch, dinner ofcourse yaa with my help? I answered saying well it will be a learning curve for me & I would learn from my mistakes & mature eventually..he smiled to this & I knew he was reminded of how he struggles to get me out of the bed every morning..He finally asked this question to which I pretended to give a smart answer but latter emotions gave me a jolt eventually..How would you take it not being able to see yours & my parents ? I replied "Well we have to move on with life as we grow & yeah if the need be it we have to adapt" ..I thought my husband was impressed with how I looked at life & at things practically...I knew what I had answered was not from my heart...there was silence for a while & then he said "Do you remember the night in our honeymoon,you cried because you missed your parents..do you remember the day when my mother had been out of station & you hugged me & cried saying that your missing your mil" I was rendered speechless now ....I still remember my husabnd tried every possible way to keep me comfortable & happy in our honeymoon to switzerland ,he never refused anything I wanted to buy or to eat or he actually never said "NO" to anything..we were in the best place on the earth ,no work,no tension,no deadlines no nothing but I missed my parents..& I just couldnt stop crying though San tried all possible way to console me.I felt better only after I called home & spoke to my parents. I also remember this day when my MIL was leaving to Kancheepuram for about 4 days & we hugged each other before she left & we said miss you to each other & I cried as I walked into the house feeling a huge vaccum.I missed the glass of milk that she would keep for me every morning & night. I missed our conversations after work. I missed everything about her. I realised how emotionally dependent I was on my loved ones. It really made me weak....We reached my office by then as all those days just flashed across my eyes making it damp.I then turned to my husband as I stopped the car & told him "I hope you wont let me go through the same bad days again,will you?!!" for which he smiled as I moved out & he said bye, take care ,have a good day ,I love you & moved to the driver's seat.. leaving me repeat my everyday dialogue..call me when you reach office,drive slowly,love you too...

Caught between strings

2008-07-15T10:10:00.000-07:00

Its close to my sleeping hours..I finally got sometime to peek into the outside world other than CDRs' & xml files & Oracle & Unix phewwww.San is on a conf call & Im waiting to tell him a bed-time story ;) comeone people..Im talking about my rants huh!!
2 more days left to go & we both are going to miss each other :( San has already started off with his tantrums like a child...Im stuck between 2 most important loved ones of my life. We would need to turn back time & replay our history.May be our cellphone bills would now increase.May be I would find San standing in frount of my house at 11.30pm as he did once giving me a surprise while we were still conversing over the phone & I walked to the balcony of my room assuming he lied that he was near my home...May be we might sit up all night chatting...May be we would meet at office during lunch..or may be we would pretend like we are going to work ,bunk office & freak out the entire day not knowing what to do...
2 more days to go & I need to pack my stuff to my mom's place ..damn Addi Maasam!!

Life as it appears

2008-07-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

Life is all full of unplanned surprises.We hope for certain things to happen our way but when reality hits us its very different.I have been married for the past 8 months now.Im quite sure that situations and circumstances would affect even the most practical of dreams but then again I have never been a practical person.As any other girl I dreamt of marrying a person who would help me to cook,clean the house,arrange my wardrobe,put clothes in the washing machine,encourage me to drive,give me a good morning kiss & hug ,a good night kiss & hug... , a shoulder for me to rest ,someone who can read my face & understand whats running on my mind,someone who can correct me when Im wrong without humiliating,who is humourous,organised & planned .....
I thought marriage was about spending hours chatting & talking or not,but being bound together by invisible strings of our love entwined to make us one.I thought it was about every call to each other ending with "I Love you" & "I Love you too".I thought marriage meant that every moment of our life we would spend together-if not physically but emotionally , so that even when far apart we could sense each other close by...
And luckily it has been much more than that...
Yesterday San & I spent the day at home.Not doing anything interesting in particular but just relaxing.After sleeping in until almost the middle of the day we had our brunch & it was fun as we dried the clothes out of the washing machine.Sometime around evening we decided to cook. An omlette burger to be precise.And while it was not the hardest of the things to make it was a lot of fun as we tried to overfeed each other ;) I recollect this incident when San was multitasking in preparing chapatis for lunch & dosa for breakfast while I returned from my bath just to see myself fall in love with him again...This also reminds me of the nights while I pretend to sleep when he is busy with work & enjoy his warm kiss & gentle hug while he slips himself slowly under the quilt Im in ,as he hopes that he doesnt disturb me hehehehe!!.We do steal a lot of moments while my inlaws are away from our visibilty & land up giving a sheepish look when they appear from no where..its all fun!!!
I remember this incident where San was sitting in the hall talking to some relatives & I was in the next room where no one could see me nor could I see them but for San.I kept passing flying kisses to San everytime he looked into the room for me which was like once every 2 seconds & he was trying every possible way to control himself..little did i expect to see my mil right behind me..my husband noticed that & continued to smile as he nodded to the conversation leaving me feel embarassed to the core as my mil walked by smiling at me...
It happens everytime over dinner while San & I keep winking at each other assuming no one notices us & when my FIL pop-up with some question we look at him with a stupid smile..having realised he was talking to us all this while :D :D

MOTHER

2008-07-07T02:57:00.000-07:00

MOTHER

Mother, the most sacred Word
Is always blissful to be heard

She is best & precious of God's creations
Who sacrifices all her temptations

Her love is so pure & fair
False in them are never there

Anytime ready for her life to bid
As she always wants the best for her kid

The unconditional love she showers
Gives us all the success & powers

Kids are her greatest treasure
Her love being beyond measure

Being a Super-woman in home-field
With all her tired day's emotions sealed

Her kids bright-future being her only ambition
She teaches them good values & tradition

The living goddess is she
Always in a caring & helping spree

Giving her a helping hand is a blessing
Which helps us to be forever progressing

The pain she bears for her kid's protection
As we salute her for her foresight & perfection

She being our teacher in disguise
Forgives our words & actions which are unwise

The debts we owe her are beyond infinity
For her love and affection so full of divinity

Bereft of words I am to describer her role
As I thank God for giving us such a soul!!

**I LOVE YOU MAA**

Memories of July 2nd

2008-07-04T01:24:00.000-07:00

It was the same day last year
As we stayed desperate to see each other
Though our souls were very near
You were miles away from me my dear

Two months of sleepless nights
With lonely battles having to fight!!
My eyes waited see the break of dawn light
As I prayed for your safe flight

As we four looked through heads
Me with a single red-rose held
Then appeared my man in a codroy brown clad
As his eyes searched for me with love,tears & glad

Lost for words and actions we were
While my dad gave you a hug like a bear
As our eyes couldn’t take off each others stare
It was a moment of treasure and rare

As I gave you the rose so fresh & delicate
Our cheeky smiles said today we date
While we headed towards the exit gate
You gifted me the purple elephant & I loved the trait

Least bothered of the jetlag you had
We roamed around the city like mad
Being happier than a newly grad
Funny we acted when we saw your dad

Today as we are happily & cheerfully wed
Our love & care for eachother is beyond said
As we thank God for the way he led
We pray to be angels of love spread!!

Update!!

2008-06-13T04:46:00.000-07:00

Well Im back!!Being swamped with work ..let alone not being able to join my friends to the cafeteria I dont even have the time to blog :p and by the time I get back home Iam about just ready to collapse.The reason behind this Ive been asked to travel to Dusseldorf,Germany for a long term of 1 year.Im refusing it as hard as possible.I had earlier declined when I was asked to travel for 3months now I really dont understand what made them think that I may travel for 12months.Hence I have to put in more efforts & try my best to finish my work before anyone points their finger at me saying "there thats why we asked u to travel to the EDS-Germany office where the Vodafone client sits & you could get your doubts clarified from them directly" duhh!!!Being relatively free today & also since we are nearing weekend I decided to pen down to my blog to give an update of my life...
Marriage:Im married for the past 7 months woo...I still feel I got married just a few hours ago..thanks to my San & the people around us to keep the fire & romance kicking ;)
Parents:My parents have bought home a new pup..looks very very cute & is extremely ferroucious...Well he is named the same as our older dog "Amruth".His gender is still a confusion in our family.My dad claims him to be a male & hubby & inlaws a female..looks like its a mystery unrevealed till he/she grows up...
Driving:Now coming to my driving skills..I have definately improved alot because I really dont care how people are on the road as Ive become immune to their uncultured traffic displine or rather Ive adapted myself to driving on bangalore roads manvouring in the midst of cattle,cyclists,dogs & every possible creature...My San finally calls the way I drive as **xy!!!OOOO!! Also he has promised to let me drive on the Highway as we leave to Kacheepuram with Praveen & Raji this weekend :) Driving an AT car is definately more comfortable than a manual one.Thanks to my San for having bought it all for me!!
Cooking:Looks like in my efforts to learn how to cook ,my husband has learnt the most out of it & to relish & appreciate the worst of culinery skills.I still struggle to cook a decent meal..my chapatis are in the shape of an undergarment!!Im half the time wondering if the salt is too less or more or just hope my husband says lets go out for dinner!!My inlaws may be travelling out of India sooner for around 15-20 days..a good time for Sanjeev & me to get back in shape by drinking water & fruit juices which will also save me from the guilt of having cooked a horrible meal :(
Shopping:This is a never-ending task even if I turn bankrupt :p Got gifts for my parents for their birthday this month..along with some shirts , t-shirts & salwars for myself. I still have quite a number of new sarees & salwars which I got post my wedding from the relatives we met.I also did road-side shopping at Malleshwaram with my friends had yummy pizza for 12 bucks..bought a very nice bed spread which was liked all in the family..I also plan to pick up some sarees at Kacheepuram this weekend..happy shopping to me again & forever!!
Mornings:The weather being chill in the mornings I struggle all the more to get up.The "5 more mins please sanju" has now become "10 more mins please da" and every night before the weekend which used to be " I'll get up at 8 tomorrow" is now "Dont wake me up or disturb me I'll get up myself".Im heading no where to reduce my laziness...or may be the exponential increase in my workload is causing this..whatever I just find all possible ways to justify my laziness!!
Workout:Yeah this is one thing Im doing religious for the past 1 week :p..it was all because of my friends at work who go for a daily walk or do yog & would talk about it over lunch .Being the lazy girl Iam all I would have is to talk about how early I slept & how I struggled to get up.This close to 30min of workout is actually making my MIL finish 3/4 of the cooking which leaves me feeling guilty as I go down & get to just keep her entertained talking & to chops coriander leaves for garnishing..
Status of my wardrobe:Worse than ever..I used to think I will change once I get married as my husband is highy organised,he arranges his clothes atleast once a week & they look as neat as in a newly inaugurated boutique.Mine just the opposite..I still have a shower of clothes falling on my head everytime I open my wardrobe.When I got married I thought the wardrobe was too big for me but now Im actually asking Sanjeev to shift his clothes to the older room where he slept when he was a bachelor...The only improvement is that I keep some set of clothes aside & iron them on every Sunday evenings which I can wear for the coming week.The idea behind is that I can save some time than to iron every morning ,but the saved time goes in me sleeping or day dreaming or hunting for my cell phone or the car keys at times!!!

That my an update of what's happening in my life in a nutshell :p

MIL's Birthday gift

2008-05-11T19:58:00.000-07:00

57 years ago
Was an angel born with no ego

Being the epitome of perfection
Food is her last temptation

Mil is she not but a true mother
Which can be denied by none other

Encourages me while driving
While her inner soul keeps praying

Best mistress is she to any maid
Always ready to meet their aid

Carrys the patience of the entire world
With actions never being hurled

Curls in her lock are perfect
As the halo around her tries to reflect

Her sweet laughter reminds me of a baby
Being so perfect and graceful lady

Assets to her are immaterial
She being the queen of home-managerial

As we wish her the best of health
The respect she commands is her wealth

A Walk down Memory Lane

2008-04-30T02:34:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Raji :)

What is the oldest / first memory you carry of:

Of your Mother: I have this very old picture of my mother where she is around 2yrs old.She looks extremely cute with her curly locks & a sleevless frock.I remember looking at her picture every morning scan every cell of her face on the picture & ask her why dont I look as beautiful as she is.She would smile back & answer me saying when I grow up & when I have a
daughter she would also ask the same question to me because for every daughter her mother is the most beautiful person on earth.

Of Crying:I guess was in my 2nd std or so & my brother was in 4th std.We studied in the same school.One evening after dinner my bro & I had a fight & I landed up giving my brother a deep cut near his eye.We were so scared that my brother covered his eye with his hand & we pretended to sleep.But having to bear an unbearbale pain he called out to my mom who was serving dinner to my dad.She saw my brother bleeding & called my dad who was shocked seeing blood all over his face n his eyes.My dad asked what happened & I confessed that I hurt him.My dad came close towards me to give me a hard wack where my brother with blood all over his face n palm came running towards my dad,held his hand said it was not her mistake but I triggered her.My parents then took him to the hostipal where his eye was bandaged completely & doctor had mentioned that my brother's eye was saved by just 3mm.when they came back from the clinic I was almost dead with guilt but just couldnot convey how miserable I felt.I cried a lot that entire night & I realised how much we loved each other inspite of all our silly fights.The next day to I went to school with a heavy heart & met my brother along with one of my friend during lunch break.When she asked him what happened to his eye,he lied saying he fell off the cot & hurt himself.He told a LIE, which I least expected as I thought he never loved me and was always jealous of me as I was better than him in academics. It was that moment I realised
me how much I meant to him.Broke down hugged him & cried a lot while my friend wondered why I ever got so emotional & that too in school.That was the day in my life I realised what sort of unwise actions & words we choose when we get angry & lose our temper.The
scar is yet visible on my brother's face & everytime I see the guilt kills me :`(

Of your Father: I was in my 3rd std when my grandfather(mom's father) expired.I had my final exams so I had to stay back with my dad n granny(father's mom).My mom had her own style of making us revise a day before our exams which my dad was not aware of.He spent all evening preparing me for my History paper the next day .It was a night when I missed everything about my mom like she telling me a bedtime story,putting me to sleep,polishing my shoes,combing my hair,feeding me n stuff.I asked my dad to take me to my grandfather's place to meet my mom,to which he refused saying you've got exams tomorrow so you better study.He also said that if i did well in tomorrow's history paper,he will take me immediately after the exam.To which I threatened my dad saying you dont take me to see mom now I will write all wrong answers in tomorrow "Fill in the Blank" section of the history paper.My dad knew I was capable enough to do so he asked me to get ready & I wore one of my most favourite jeans skirt & white shirt in which my mom adored me alot & we left to meet my mom.I met my mom gave her a big hug & narrated to her all that happened at school & at home with my dad.Finally I scored 100 in history ,thanks to my dad!!

Of School:My brother & I studied in the same Kindergarten.His classroom was just adjacent to mine.My cousin brother & my brother were classmates n benchmates too.Anytime my teacher would turn her back towards us to write something on the blackboard.I would run out of my class & get in to my brother's classroom & sit in between him & my cousin.My brother &
cousin would actually hide me from the teacher by asking me bend down under the table.We three would drink the fruit juice & eat the cream biscuits & chips that our moms' would pack for us.When my teacher would realise that Im missing she would come to my brother's class carry me in her arms with my head on her shoulders & would take me away.I would wave bye to my brother & cousin and say dont tell this to mom...lets meet again..But once I reach home the moment I would look at my mom would say it all & would get to hear a long advice..

Of a Fight: Ever since the incident that I narrated earlier about hurting my brother close to his eye I never fought with anyone.If ever I do its just verbal & hardly lasts for a few minutes & I compose myself & calm down.

Of a Lie you told:My parents brought me up saying telling a lie was the most sinful deed on earth.Hence I would never lie.I would either confess my mistake & ask for an apology or remain quiet.The 1st time I ever lied was when I was in my 3rd sem Engineering when I went out for shopping with my friend & her mom to buy a saree for my mom & a shirt for my dad.It was a
surprise gift that I wanted to give my parents for their wedding anniversary. I lied to my mom saying I would need to use up my pocket money to buy some salwars for myself at Malleshwaram where my friend was put up.I then returned back home with a
cotton saree & a shirt material for my dad.

Of a Vacation:As a child I hated travelling by any diesel vechiles as I would puke my guts out.My grandparents along with my uncles,aunts & cousins had planned for a trip to Pearl Valley at Anekal district.Right from when I boarded the bus till we reached home I puked so much that I had felt even the cerelac & my mother's milk that I had during my babyhood was all
out.Hence we hardly went out for any vacations that involved bus or a taxis.

Of Laughing:I studided Kannada for about 3yrs in school.Hence I was comfortable with the language only to the extent of reading the route number of the buses.My 1st day at my PU college a lecturer cracked a joke in Kannada & the entire class burst out laughing loud.Later my friend explained to me & I laughed out alone & the entire class wondered what took me so
long to understand a simple joke.It was embarassing for me though!!

Of a Class Mate:I was in 1st std & I joined school about 1 week after the others had joined.My 1st day at school I was asked to introduce myself.Post my introduction everyone kept staring at me & it was just one boy an Anglo-Indian named John who clapped for me & then the others followed.My teacher asked me to sit next to him.He was the shortest of the boys & I was
shortest of the girls.So we stood beside each other heading the girls & boys row respectively during our school assembly.He would join me and my brother for lunch & would fudge all answers from me during any class test.I would go home & complain to my mom every evening how badly he stinked when we were back from our PT class.

Of a Relative:My grandmom(mother's mom).She was an epitome of patience & perfection.She would fall sick quite often when I was young & many a times we would have to call a doctor home to give her some injections.Everytime the doctor would go near her to give her an injection i would hide my face behind any of my mamas'.Once the doctor would leave I would climb on top of the bed sit very close to my granny to see a drop of tear at the corner of her eye.I would wipe that tear off her eyes & I would say Paati one day I will become a doctor & give will you injection that will not have any needle & it will not give you any pain.She would smile back & pull me close to her chest & would pat me to sleep.

Of a Teacher:My nursery school teacher whose name is also Subashini.She used to ride a 2 wheeler & carried herself really well in her cotton sarees that she draped.Every afternoon when I return home I would tell my mom the colour saree she had draped & how she appreciated me or how she scolded me.I always imagined her taking me on her 2 wheeler making me sit behind
her & me struggling to reach my leg down to foot-rest.

Of your brother/sister:When my brother was a kid,he was extremely naughty & loved experimenting with electronic gadgets or stripping any toys given to him & assemble them back.Hence my parents always avoided giving him any new gadgets or toys to
play or have a watch on him whenever they give such stuff.So I would ask my parents to give me those gadgets to play & run to my brother ,give to him & ask him to play because it was very sad to see him deprived of playing such stuff which he loved to.

Eight

2008-04-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

I got tagged by Raji

Eight things I am passionate about:
1)My family- which includes my hubby,inlaws ,parents n brother
2)San's driving skills
3)San's way of putting me to sleep,waking me up,making me drink milk after I slept which I would have forgotten.
4)Sleeping on Saturday & Sunday afternoons- when I snore my guts out after a good meal
5)Eating Pizzas and chicken Wings- I just love them
6)Driving-I love driving but my biggest critic is my husband whom I have to admit whole-heartedly is the best of the best drivers I have seen till date.
7)Soft toys-I already have a huge collection in my room & yet wouldnt mind owning many more
8)Animated Movies-I just adore the very minute things which they portray with great humour..

Eight things I want to do before I die:
1)A Trip around the world with just my San & a long stay at Interlaken & Luzern-These 2 are the places we enjoyed the most during our Honeymoon
2)To Dine & Travel in a Cruise..go to the edge of the cruise & look at the fast moving water & the clear sky above & hide my face from the Sun on San's chest.
3)cook a decent meal for my parents & in-laws
4)Get a compliement that Im a good driver from my SAN (my biggest critic at driving)
5)Sleep for one full day & its night.
6)Learn a foreign language
7)Get back to my school & meet all my teachers.
8)Make sanju sing a Tamil song :)

Eight things I say often:
1)yeahh right
2)ohmygoodness.com
3)have a heart
4)yappaa
5)5minutes please sanju..last 5minutes let me sleep please
6)i love u
7)bill ball bull
8)how rude!!

Eight books I have read recently:
1)The long road home
2)Da Vinci Code
3)Who moved my cheese
4)Harry Potter Series
5)The monk who sold his Ferrari
6)The Otherside of midnight
7)Tell me your dreams
8)Confidence for leaders

Eight songs I could listen to over and over:
1)Toxic-Britney Spears
2)Tumse hi-Jab We Met
3)In Lamhon Ke Daaman Mein-Jodha Akbar
4)Sexy Back-Justin Timberlake
5)Do you know-Entrique
6)Vellai Pookal-Kannathil Mutham Ittal
7)Laysa Laysa-Laysa Laysa
8)Nee Paadhi Naan Paadhi-Keladi Kannmani

Eight things that attract me to my friends:
1)Energitic
2)Motivative
3)Emphathatic
4)Talkative
5)Honest
6)Tranparency
7)Humorous
8)Forgiving

Birthday Poem

2008-04-01T04:16:00.000-07:00

Today 30 my Sanju turns
With heart as tender & green as new fern

Thanks to my MIL & FIL
For his upbringing so perfect to kill

Being an arien, born on 29th March
He is as helpful as water when parch

Being the mature & caring dude he is
Makes our married life a beautiful bliss

San being the apple of my eye
Never fails a hug before a bye

Exhibits love in his unique style
which leaves me smitten forever & while

Loves & respects his best friends
Who are always true with no pretends

I pray for success in all his aspiration
As our love is infinity more than satisfaction

Here I wish my Sanju a very happy birth-day
To succeed in everyfield that display

Valentine's Day

2008-02-21T00:28:00.000-08:00

Eversince I started working I always celebrated my Valentine's day with my MOM.I would work on Jan 26th (Republic day) & would compensate by taking an off on Valentine's day.If my mom & I decide to go out we would do loads of shopping & if ever we decide to spend time at home I would cook something special for her of the very minimal culinery skills that I own.But this year was an extremely special valentine's day for a couple of reasons viz I was celebrating it with my hubby,for the first time I had pre-planned things , wanted to make this day the most memorable one,above all my hubby's friend Vijay made this Valentine's day the most unforgettable one for a life time.Though my hubby & I knew each other a year ago,we really had no name for our relationship.It was more sacred than friendship but neither of us were ready to commit before the approval from our parents.Above all my hubby being an idealist always endrosed & encouraged the idea of avoiding being captured in the eyes ofpeople who dont respect realtionship & who label a boy-girl relation as an "affair".Hence I celebrated my 2007 valentine's day with my Mom,though San was equally important to me as much as her ever since then.

This year I started my planning since 7th Feb when I came up with this poem as I was waiting for my FIL to pick me up.
Post a lot of brain squeezing I decided to do 2 things for the special day to give my hubby a big surprise.

1)Courier a greeting Card with my poem on it + a memorable gift to my hubby's office address.
2)Decorate our room with candles & rose petals

This was the 1st time that I had ever planned & was hoping to execute successfully..till my hubby's very good friend Vijay turned up from nowhere to gets me on my nerves even to this day.

My friends & I decided to spend our 8th Feb evening at Brew-Ha-Ha-Ha which is at Koramanagala, quite close to Forum & my hubby's office.I had the idea of getting San's & my pic on a coffee mug hence borrowed San's pen drive to copy some of our pics to it.Me being extermely lazy left San with absoulutely no clue of what I was upto.
However my BIL suggested me about the getting it done on a crystal frame he even took the pain of walking to Forum from his company just to ensure that there is a stall in Forum where they get the photo printed on a crystal frame.Hence on our way to Brew-Ha-Ha-Ha placed the order for our photo & chose an unique crystal frame which was the only model available.The guy said it would take 24hrs for our photo to be printed on the crystal & hence I could collect it the next day.But the next day being a Saturday I decided to collect it on Monday as I didnt wanted my hubby to get the slightest hint of my surprise to him.

Was back to work on Monday morning with all curiosity to sneak out wih my friend to Forum during lunch & to collect the gift.
My friend & I just boared the rick while San called me and said "Shubu I really love you & thanks a lot for the valentine's gift".I was totally dumbstruck & was fuming assuming the shopkeeper had placed my gift for display & it caught my hubby's eyes.Since I was really upset & didnt wanted San to know that I was on my way to Forum to collect it ,I pretended to be in the cafeteria & promised to call him back once Im back to my workstation.Once we reached Forum I was all set to blast the shopkeeper for being the culprit, little did I expect that it was my hubby's friend Vijay who was the actual he-devil.Having realised I was upset with my gift being revealed to the person to whom it was supposed to be surprise,my hubby kept calling me constantly to console me & finally narrated to me as to what exactly had happened.
San received a call from Vijay saying "Man I know what you are gonna gift your wife this valentine,I saw your pic in forum".San being all shocked trying to clarify what Vijay uttered , walked upto Forum & enquiring about this crystal frame & finally found my gift.

The funniest part was San arguging with the shopkeeper to buy it for which Ive already paid !!!
His silly friend had assumed that it was San's gift to me.
This turned me off bigtime wondering how could he just not think the otherway round or atleast asked San in a clever way like "What have you decided to gift your wife this valentine".Well I guess some guys really have very little ridges & grooves on their brain to think before they speak.
Hence one of my plans got screwed up royally!!Thank to Vijay again!! Here is the crystal frame
Oh yeahh this guy did apologise several times to San & suggested a silly idea to make up for it by asking San to take me for the Thrusday night premier of Jodha Akbar..I was least interested in this option while I still had my other plans to keep my Valentine's day live & kicking.
Fortunately I had no other he/she devils hampering my remaining plans & everything else went in a more than perfect way.For which I thank my MIL to the core who walked up every shop with me hunting for candles & a basket of roses.Above all she even helped me by preventing San from entering our room once I had done with the decorations.she was extermely cute in keeping a watch on San's every movement to ensure that atleast this suprise of mine goes well.
San was really thrilled & extremely happy for the way I had lit the room with just candle lights & rose petals all over. This is what I did

He even woke up my FIL who was in the middle of his sleep to have a look at our room & to appreciate my thoughfulness..it was a little embarassing for me though.However my surprise to San didnt end here ,the elephant-size greeting card which had my poem written on it reached his office the next day adding a bigger smile on my San.
After all I always beleived in being happy by making people around me happy.
As we returned home that evening I was very contended that my other plans worked out well making our day most memorable.
But just to complete the evening San gave me a bigger surprise & took my breathe away.He had bought me a real cub sized Simbha soft toy.It was as big as a calf with an extermely cute face & tail.No other gift would have made me happier than this soft toy.Here is Simbha
Our room already has almost all the animals of a jungle & Simbha had to complete the picture.
Apart from this our car had a weird smell that evening ,a smell which I loved the most but was unable to recollect.Post a couple of guesses I finally gave up & decided to pounce & open up the cover..it was chicken pizza & chicken wings YUMMYYYYY..I can eat any number of chicken pizzas & chicken wings at any point of time either day or midnight or evening anytime ..you name it Im all set to hog them.I was more than thrilled & surprised & happy at San's thoughfulness to do something so unpredictable.Least did I expect a surprise like this from a person like san who is so known for his maturity & practicality.

San always exhibited his own style of doing things which always took my feet off the ground!!!

Mood Swing

2008-02-14T05:39:00.000-08:00

Wrote this a couple of days ago while I was not able to explain my hubby the reason for my mood swing!!!

sanju i love u
& feel our love is forever new

but irritated i am now
dont know its reason n how

what do i to overcome
for u know im dumb

feeling pissed and sick
& want to give someone a hard kick

hoping to take an off someday
n sleep like hen with eggs to lay

with no choice I now get back to work
to get trained by nithin who loves eating perk

Valentine's day Gift for my sweetoo :) :)

2008-02-14T05:18:00.000-08:00

It started since 17th Jan 2007
When a cupid struck on me from heaven

Soaked was I head over heels in love
Which makes me feel blessed forever and now

Being wed to my sweetheart
Who stands by me no matter what

Today being Valentine's day
Have loads of wishes to say

But Bereft of words Iam
For my love who is sweeter than Jam

Thanks for accepting my love my dear San
As we remain close like teflon to pan

I hope this reaches you as a surprise
Leaving me in your thoughts to mesmerize

As our love grows with each day
I hope the traffic today gives us some way

To have a candle light dinner
As we celebrate our love like a winner……

New Year Wishes

2008-01-03T20:14:00.000-08:00

It was around the last day of 2007 where there were chains of mail being sent across wishing each other for new year..while I decided to wish my friends & well wishers in a little different way & sent out this mail...

Here comes 2008
Time for all to celebrate

With new dreams & rays of hope
We pray that you remain as stong as a rope

Aspiring for success in every field
As much as your efforts could yield

As we pray for all your hale & hearty health
And minds to remain void of stealth

Here Sanjeev & I wish you all
With no disturbance with a midnight call

A Very happy & prosperous New year ahead
As I resolve to compromise my sleeping hours on bed

From
Sanjeev & Subashini

My Birthday Celebration at work

2008-01-03T20:12:00.000-08:00

I sent this mail out to the entire Vodafone team who made my Birthday a memorable one for a lifetime!!

Hi People

Thanks a lot for making my birthday memorable.It was very nice of you to plan things behind my back & execute it leaving me clueless of what was happening.

Thanks again for making my day.

Today 25 I turn
Thanks for your zeal like the act of churn

Having planned things in dark
Left my day with a memorable mark

The united we Vodfone team stay
Leaves us with zero dismay

Thanks for the black forest cake
Sweet Chariot being its make

Alas it was a great day
Which made me feel as light as hay

-Regards
Subashini D

Subha Learns to Cook :)

2007-12-17T02:59:00.000-08:00

Im just learning to cook post my marriage.I always relished this dish of rice+mysore dal which my MIL cooks.Since my hubby n FIL too like this receipe I made up my mind to learn this over the weekend & asked my MIL to instruct me as I cooked.She being the Mt.Everest of patience guided me extermely well..how I wish she could teach me driving :p
since I have a highly volatile memory I decided to jot things down in this blog so that I can refer it in the future...

Ingredients

1)Rice-3 cups
2)Mysore Dal-1 cup
3)Onion-3 big ones
4)Pudina-a handful
5)Curry Leaves-a handful
6)Green chilly-4
7)Oil-5 table spoons
8)Ghee-1 table spoon
9)Bay leaves-2
10)Garlic
11)Ginger (grated)
12)cardomon
13)elaichi
14)crystal salt -4 tea spoons
15)Cashew nuts

First of all wash the rice & dal just once & drain the water out completely.Pour some oil in the cooker & add the cashew nuts bay leaves,cardomon,elaichi.After about a minute add the grated ginger & the garlic,keep frying for about 2 mintutes.Now add the Sliced onion & keep frying till the onion turns slight brown.Now add the slited green chilly,pudina leaves,curry leaves & crystal salt & mix well.
Keeping mixing well so that things dont get burnt at the bottom of the cooker.Now add the rice+dal & mix them well slowly.Leave for about a minute till you hear/see the rice sputter a little bit at the bottom.Now add about 8 cups of water (3/4 full in the glass).Stir the contents well.cover the cooker and leave it till the steam comes out which would take about 5minutes.Now place the weight over the cooker & allow it to cook till the whistle blows once or for about 15-20 minutes.Allow for a standing time of about 5 minutes.Open the cooker & transfer the contents to the Casserol....Serve it with curds,cucumber,onion,tomato,chat masala raitha...

Well Im planning to cook the same on Jan24 or Jan 25 or Jan 26 08 when my MIL is gonna go to Kancheepuram & I have to cook for my hubby :p...Poor San...:p

Subha learns to cook
But not from a book

Made a note of every point
From her MIL words of anoint

Hopes to cook someday
with least or zero dismay

Her MIL being an angel
Subha has no problem to gel

Sooner she would cook the best
For her love & the rest

Missing my Maa :(

2007-12-13T03:42:00.000-08:00

It was around 7.30amish this morning when I woke up with a start.I was supposed to call my mom & wish her a happy & safe journey.With great desperation to listen to her voice & praying that she hadnt left I scrolled down my contact list & called home.
Thank god my mom answered!!!I felt really really good & my mom too was expecting a call from me & she too was hoping that she'd able to talk to me before she leaves.She would be returning back on Friday night after her Om Shakthi temple visiting.MOM I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU ALOT:( :(

My dear mom not in station
Looks like a fiction

Waiting for her call
To stop my tear fall

Missing her to the core
From greater depths like a bore

Used to wrap her saree around a pillow
And shed tears like a weeping willow

Want her to return soon
To make me glow like moon

Hubby's compliment

2007-12-12T02:51:00.000-08:00

Now that I had just mentioned in my earlier post that San said I looked like a "Mallu Kutty",I couldnt stop myself from writing this :)

Today San called me Mallu Kutty
As I was recollecting unix login to Putty

His compliments are quite rare
False in them are never there

Appreciates people who are punctual
which makes up his beauty actual

Loves his Santro & Indigo
Critics of it will face a blow

Keeps the face of an angry kitten
Which leaves me all smitten

Vodafone Saree Day :) :)

2007-12-12T02:26:00.000-08:00

It was a Saree day in our Vodafone Project & I wrote this mail to the team mates of Vodafone-germany(the team Im in).Thanks to my maid Ganga,she was the lady behind my well draped saree :) btw San said I looked like a Mallu Kutty ;) ;)

Hey Ladies

Thanks for keeping up the zeal & being in saree.Hoping for many more days to prove our togetherness..

Ladies in saree
Made the Vodafone floor look merry

For guys it was a surprise
& for ladies sleeping hours compromise

Madhuri clad in blue
Gave the look of Bharathiya nari true

Meeta in Green
Was our silent queen

Shwetha in brown with red jewel
Looked all set for school farewell

Veena in a bright yellow
with her cute smile & hello

Sreedevi in green & orange
With her talks of different range

Nandini in maroon and black
Looked like a teacher ready to wack

Rekha in green with shine
Made her daughter say "mom ur mine"

Aparna in blue n maroon
was draped well like a cocoon

Now its me Subashini in pink & white
who is always in Sanjeev's sight ;)

Alas Deexha was the odd one out
Lets all gang up to give her tailor a blow shout

-Love
Subashini D

An exciting Sunday Evening

2007-12-10T02:01:00.000-08:00

My dad & my father-in-law were always aganist flying kites..they did have a reason though .They felt we guys wud climb up trees or lamp posts & wud land up hurting ourselves.
Having worked in government organizations or whtever be the reason they shared almost the same mentality in terms of out door games.My hubby would peek-a-boo with his cousin Karthik during his childhood days & was upto all sorts of mischief.
Never did my bro nor I flew a kite during our childhood since we had our granny who was dad's spy...Now that we are married & all settled I rekindled my hubby about the idea of flying kite & he spontaneosly brought 3 kites of differnt colours.Post our lunch Praveen,Jaggu Uncle,my hubby & I were all up at the terrace which was neatly laid by mosaic tiles & there were began our stunts...

It was a sunday evening
There comes San all grinning

There was a kite in his hand
Which made me say "Your my lovely husbaaand"

The sky was bright and hot
And San asked me to get rice from the pot

As Jaggu uncle instructed
The kite's accessories were all constructed

Praveen elevated it from the neighbouring house
Being unnoticed like a mouse

As Sanju tried his skills in soaring
Praveen's cell kept roaring

The kite rose high in style
and I was admiring my San mean while

I held the thread with great caution
Hurting my finger by its fast motion

The kite flew to a great height
And It was out of everyone's sight

Finally we walked down
Like the Heros of the tinsel town

Alas I love flying kite
Which makes us all feel lite....

Waiting for hubby

2007-12-06T01:06:00.000-08:00

I wrote this poem sometime post my dinner while I was waiting for my hubby to return home from work...

san the don
is now with 2 horns

wed to a beauty
whom he calls cutie

takes care of her like a father
which can be denied by none other

she makes excellent tea
trying to prove her culinery beauty

she now waits for the don to return home
to make her feel living in rome...

Married for a month :)

2007-11-28T22:56:00.000-08:00

Im married for a month now!!!Feels great being a wife & daughter-in-law.
It was around the sametime last month when I felt I was an integral part of another new family.The mixed feeling of immense joy of being wed,apprehension of leaving my parents,nervous about having to adapt to a new environment,satisfaction of marrying my love after all the courtship..all & much more emotions poured in when Sanjeev tied the sacred yellow thread around my neck..
Since our marriage began in a typical arranged channel & then we fell in love we had ample time to know each other & also each other's family.
Exactly one month ago I was in the marriage hall in a deep red silk saree looking at my parents & bro running around settling things & with a deep sense of satisfaction & happiness.
My hubby was with me & I was nervous wondering the way everything happened in just a fraction of a second.
Looks like I just passed out of school..college..1st job..2ndjob..3rd job..met Sanjeev..he proposed..the courtship..Sanjeev leaving to US..betrothal..wedding shopping..an ultra grand reception..early morning wedding..Sanjeev's hurt finger..bombay sightseein..juhu beach..our honeymoon to switerland..lost in the streets of Luzerne...Mt titlis..cablecars..interlaken..snowfall..schillthron..somtimes yummmy n some yucky food...
back home..Indian food..farewall at home..dad,mom & I weeping..inlaws & hubby comforting & hugging..Back to work..Praveen(Sanjeev's cousin)'s engagement...My viral fever..Chitra's wedding(Sanjeev's sister)..Chitra's farewell...
All good things are happening so quickly at the flash of a lightening..leaves me wondering if Im awake or if its all a dream..

Was just talking to my collegue about Luzern & how Sanjeev & I got lost in the streets & found our way back using the luzern city map.
The best was the snowfall at Interlaken..I had never seen a snowfall all my life & it was just a couple of days before we wound up our honeymoon that the snowfall had just begun..
It was just amazingly beautiful & I ran across the streets like a kid having my husband run behind me.. :) :) Poor hubby was more like my father advising me to keep myself warm while I preferred enjoying the extremely cold & healthy weather...

The security checks at the airport which beeped everytime I was being checked..The flight take off..landing..immigration checks..The cuckoo clock shopping..choclocates shopping..shopping gifts for our respective families..the buffet breakfast of the egg scramble,bacons,raspberry,orange juice,milk.....hmmmmm..how can I forget the Icecream I had at the Jungfraujoch where we were freezing at -4 deg Centi..City Tour of Geneva..City tour of Zurich..the Mexican food..the COOPS..the days being extermely short..life coming to an end by 5.30 6pm..the Intercity Trains..SBB counters..Starbucks..McDonalds..the Indians we encountered..

Guess this was the most thrilling & exciting month I have been through since I ever realised myself.
Hoping for many more exciting months to come in the future with happier events occuring...

OOPS how can I ever forget the most thrilling evening Sanjeev & I spend at Interlaken in a CASINO..1st time I had been to a Casino & boyy it was exciting..learnt to play the most simple game when our conscious pricked us for the CHFs' we spent..We spent close to 8CHF learning to play since almost all the games where in French or German.Finally we managed to get a waitress/bar tender who spoke English & then we tried our luck on gambling...

Ahem Ahem!!

2007-06-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

Which HP Kid Are You?

My rants,nothing new in my history actually!!

2007-06-06T11:59:00.000-07:00

OK, I've been staring at this screen for over 10 mins now trying to organize my thoughts. I give up & finally decide to rant!!
To attend a training session when u have loads of documention work assigned is the worst nightmare.I personally feel training is essentially a congregation of jobless and temporarily out-of-work people getting together in an effort to squeeze the last remaining juices out of their decomposing brains. These people can actually go out bowling, or go and get drunk, or go home and lie on their bed watching TV and munching chips and still get their monthly salaries. But instead you'll find them all in the ice-cold conference room, one guy sleeping, another biting his nails-lost in some other dimension, and another fiddling with his pen or sms'ing the person on the other side of the table. In between all this excitement, the leader of the pack will be going on with his talk, muchly satisfied that his life finally has a purpose.
Whenever my manager asks me to "Prepare a document" for the work I've done, my whole world crashes around me. I think writing a document is equal to bonded labour. I'm quite convinced that each time a manager asks his subordinate to prepare a "document", he's thinking, "Suffer, suffer you nasty little prick.. The manager derives the same kind of sadistic pleasure a twisted serial killer derives out of his sins .
Well I seem to have an issue with everything around me,guess that how I am or its a manufacuring defect or rather on an optimistic note issues keep me entertained!!