Im addicted to you dont you know that your toxic!!

Yes Im Addicted..this addiction started way back in Jan 2007 and it has been growing in leaps and bounds since then..I know everyone wants to get out their addictions but this is something I would want to thrive inside me and enjoy for the rest of my life.Sounds weird but yes I love this addiction of mine and I hope it grows for ever.Im addicted to my Husband..yes..Im so addicted to him that I realised how much of an impact it had on me when he was away for 10 days during this US travel.For many it was just a matter of few days but for me each day was a decade to live just to catch him on the webcam chat every night.
I would wake up each day missing his strong arms holding me firmly and every night as I went to bed I would miss falling asleep in his broad shoulders talking about how my day was at work.I missed the way he drove me to work in no time, I missed him ironing my clothes every day,keeping my footware out of the shoe rack.I just missed him fidgeting with the gadgets,I missed everything about him....
For those 10 days when my husband was away, I would console each morning when I made breakfast saying that Sanju doesnt want to eat oats today so I need to make breakfast only for me.When I prepared chapatis for lunch I would soothe myself saying Sanju would eat at work.My husband and I eat together most of the time when we are at home and we share a single glass of water(wink).But during his absence I would say myself that he is held up with some important release at work and hence he is not there with me for dinner.When I prepared milk at night I would tell myself that sanju is too full today to drink milk and hence I need to make only for myself.But the reality of he not being next to me would hit me the most when I would go to sleep around 2.00amish realising the fact that I have been fooling myself all day just to survive through the hard truth of he living miles away from me missing me as much as I do.
I would wait endlessly for 9.30pm IST when he would be online on the webcam , every glimpse of him would bring a tear to my eye and his question would be why are you so dull today..Yes I was extremely dull as I lived like a vegetable though I had so many loving people around me at home.I missed him ..missed him badly..missed him more than during our courtship days...
The day he returned was the most glorious day I had ever lived till then...my man was back with loads of love and goodies for me...Ever since then we have been making up for each nano-second that we missed each other...I really love him..Little did I ever expect that I will be so much so head over heels in love with someone but yes this MAN..my MAN (blink blink) has made it happen my life....
Now he is the Toxic , a lovable toxic that Im addicted to forever...

Mixed Feelings

Feeling weird,happy,sad,hopeful,confused all at the same time.Its time for me to move on from my current employer to another phase of my life.Priorities change as you mature and so does your job.It was around the sametime last year I was wondering if I had made the right decision with my choice of employer but I realise that it was a great place to work for.On the professional front I have definately improved a lot on my domain and technical abilities and on the personal I have gained quite a few friends and my encounter with them is something that Im going to cherish for a very long time.
The hectic sprints,long work hours,working on weekends,healthy arguments with peers,war rooms,planning meetings... all seems be a wonderful experience in my stint here.2010 seems to be offering me new challenges right from the very begining of the year I just hope and pray that Im able to handle every oppoutunity I take with a pinch of salt and handle them successfully.I would be getting back home tomorrow leaving behind my laptop,access card,Id card...
Im going to be a housewife for the next couple of days before I actually step out into another new world waiting to offer me its own good and bad.