Happiness comes in small packages

Nothing can irritate you more than your husband waking you up saying "Get up...you need to prepare breakfast and lunch,your already late".Well this is how my day begun today!!To add on to it as we drove to work the traffic was a total mess worse than usual.. reached late for my meeting and saw people dispersing from the meeting room while I was panting for breath ..Opened mylaptop and the battery was completely drained out..Finally it boots and boom!! blue screen..I tried the 1st step of troubleshooting "Hard Restart"..it worked..good for me.Feeling extermely thirsty I went to the pantry to fill my water bottle..no water in any of those cans..Informed the admin incharge who advices to me to use the water from the coffee vending machine which is boiling hot.Argh!!!Totally frustrated started my work which added on to my existing irritation with all the last minute changes to be incorporated and no ready to work environments.It was just about the time for me to leave for lunch and I noticed this mail from my husband in my inbox.It was an old mail that he had replied to while we were in courtship.Its basically a questionaire that your dear ones fill it up with details about you...Below is the email and it made my day :)


-----Original Message-----

From: Sivanandam, Sanjeev

Sent: Wednesday, June 20, 2007 11:06 PM

To: 'Subashini D'Subject: RE: reply


BE HONEST
1. My name:
Subashini D

2. Where did we meet?:
We met virtually on shaadi.com and inperson at Panchami :)

3. How long have you known me?:
6 months

4. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:
A Lot

5. When you first saw me what was your first impression?
She was a cute girl and I wished that you'll accept me.

6. Mi birthday?: [compulsory field] 27th DEC 1982

7. Color Hair?: Black

8. Color eyes?: Black

9. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met?
Hi,Hello,blushing,Car Parking and above all remove my glasses

10. What ? s my fav type of music?:
Tamil and English Songs (Hot Ones with nice beats)

11.What ? s one of my fav things to do outdoors?:
Eat and Shop

12. Am I shy or outgoing?
Somewhat shy :)

13. Would you consider me a friend?:
More than that

14. Have you ever seen me cry? If yes, when?:
I havent seen u cry but I knew u cried several times.Your voice said that

15. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?
Cutiee

16.I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me?
Yes

AM I ??? . ?!?!?!?
17. Quiet or loud?
Loud

18. Short or Tall:
Medium :)

19.Weird or original:
Weird

20. Smart or stupid?
Smart at times silly and stupid many a time

21. Boring or Fun?
Fun

22. Attractive or Unattractive?
Attractive

DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)
23.A psycho?
NO

24.Athlethic?
NO

25. A nerd?
NO

26. Two-faced?
NO

27.Immature?
YES

28. Mature?
NO still to learn a lot

JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
29. What is the worst thing about me?
Your possessiveness and silliness

30. When is my birthday?
Answered in Q6

31. Who is my best friend?
Santosh - in boys Rajini/Arthi/Priya/Praneta/Shamita/Jayshree ( I don't think u have one best friend as such) these girls are all ur good friends

32. What song(if any)reminds you of me?
DDLJ - Meri Kabo Mein too Aya

33. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
Not really

34. If you could rename me, what would my name be?
Anjali S

35. A feature that you like about me as a person:
Your cute round chubby face and ur smile

36. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
My Happiness

37. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be?
Awesome

38. What word do I say all the time?
PODA

39. Is there anything you ? d like to say to me?
I Love u and Thanks for being a part of my life.

Random Thoughts that run across you!!

There are people who talk to you with sugar coated words ...they make you feel like your the best in whatever you do..but at the same time they are capable enough to switch gears and talk ill about you behind your back.I dont know if its for the same reason or what but I have learnt to be immune to compliments over a period of time. I really dont have to do things to impress someone or to prove my standards. I know what I am capable of and also of my shortcomings,Im happy with the way I am and I really dont need false praises to get work done out of me.
Sometimes you really dont know whats running on your mind but your so stressed out that you just pen down some random thoughts running in your mind.To be frank Im really exhausted...I have no words to explain how tired every cell in my body feels.The physical strain on me seems to be much more than the mental one. I think I need a break ,I need a day all for myself where I do nothing but just sleep or pamper myself.
The more you work the more is offloaded to you...and there is absolute no consideration or a waiver whatsoever for multitasking in trying to achieve a satiable amount of worklife balance.Another challenge is to deal with the stereotypes.They are so reluctant to change that they develop a sense of insecurity to adapt.My theory is simple,if you expect me to something let me do it in my way,dont expect me to change to your comfort.If you want me to change Im not in game,please do it your way and I have no qualms about it.
Btw Im extermely hungry now and have nothing to eat :(

Jab We All Met

I was walking back to my building after lunch and for some reason I was recollected about this most beautiful moment of my life...the 1st time San,his parents and relatives had come home to see me..I still remember the day like it happend just a few hours ago..San's mom called us & informed that they would come over to our place around 6pm,it was a Sunday evening a very beautiful evening..my most memorable one that I cherish till date..Usually the prospective grooms intentionally do not arrive on time just to build up their price & I hated it...I hated it more because my dad always insisted I drape a saree,put flowers and wear some gold jewels..so I had to put up an act of what Im actually not till the prospective groom and his folks left & now I had to stay in this attire and wait for them ...There were times when we would actually give up while the groom's parents would call up with a silly explaination about the bad traffic or not being able to locate our house...Admist such grooms ,San being called as the walking clock called up our home at 5.50pm at a location that will would take less than 10 mintutes to reach our home asking us to guide them the way to our home.My brother instantly reached the place in no time & gained all the attention and the good name by his humble ,friendly and emphathatic attitude.He managed to impress everyone in San's family including San accumulating pressure on me to be all the more the so called "good girl"..yeah right me and good :p contact San for more details....Anyways San and his family stepped into our house when the clock struck 6pm & I could actually see San's deep sense of satisfaction for having lived up to the name of being called a walking clock. While my parents greeted them ,a self introduction session had started while I had all the butterflies in the world flying inside my stomach.San was not the 1st first groom had I seen..I have seen several weird ones and smart ones too ;) hehe but still you when its the special one its always a little bit of overreaction and exaggeration...While I was in the kitchen nibbling on some snacks that was kept to be served for San and his family I was also listening to what they were talking..There were a lot of loud trumphets being blown about San in Dolby Stereo effect & I was like "Oh really..."Finally came the time when my dad said "Subha come" and I hoped I was deaf for a moment not to hear it or blind so that I dont see the way they stare at me from head to toe.Since San & I had already met near my office a few days ago I was saved from being in a saree or flowers or the extra jewels since I had told my dad that San does like such show off and he wants me appear like the way I am..and for once my dad heeded.I had no clue how I managed to walk from the kitchen to the hall all I remember was San was sitting at a position which was facing the kitchen door & he got to see me first & he pretended like he was seeing me for the first time..I remember my bro giggling as I sat with a huge thud on the sofa next to my mother-in-law and smiled at all.I realised that I forgot to say "Namaste" which I had rehearsed n times all day .So while everyones eyes were stuck on me with their smiles I abruptly said "Namaste" and gave a funny giggle at my brother who was laughing at me with his mute button on.Then started my FIL with his regular questions about schooling,college,engineering,blah blue...while the ladies were busy observing me from every angle I saw my San with a cheeky look listening to me talk ..What surprised me the most was once my FIL stopped firing questions at me, San started like as if he knew nothing about me..I said to myself..Gosh your such a good actor...I was like yeah right and answered his questions like I was answering them for the 1st time & patted myself saying "Im also a good actor". As my dad took a tour of everyone around the house San decided to sit and talk to me..this was when he was my San..took a hop skip and jump and landed sitting right next to me with his eyes at the duplex part of my house to ensure no on was peeping at us...Finally I had to literally push him to take a tour of the house along with others which he did reluctantly...Finally as they left San turned around saying "Bye Subashini" with a sweet glint in his eyes..thats it I knew he was my man for now and forever....

Sometimes my MIL and I talk about this day and she says what she liked about me the most was that I kept smiling throughout even though I was nervous...and what I liked the most about my MIL was she never asked me any questions but kept smiling not then nor now....

Patience is the Key

Sometimes the decisions we take at our most impulsive state of mind lands up in a regret.However there are occations where as you endure you bear the fruit of it.The duration from the time you realise that you have taken a hasty decision till the time you either accept & endure OR till you call it a quit is pretty much disturbing which takes a toll on several faces of your life or even on your day to day activities...Sometimes your so preoccupied analysing if there is anything you could probably do make yourself feel better you tend to forget the most vital attributes of your life.You forget yourself & forget to cherish some beautiful moments.But if you could look back at your past & analyse that you have actually gone through similar phase earlier you feel a little better because your endurance was actually fruitful . What if I endure now hoping for my past to repeat & I land up nowhere??OR what with this current state of mind I take another decision which may turn out to be favourable or may land me into deeper shit..
There has been several beautiful moments that I have encountered in my life since my last post but for some reason or the other I was just not able to cherish it beyond a point because there is something nagging me constantly ... Im not sure where what went wrong..I was very happy when I took the decision..it was purely mine ..yet I dont know if Im actually regretting or if Im just hoping things would get solved over a period of time...Over a period of time...this is one term that Im unable to define....Im not sure if this is a phase to make me stronger or weaker....My conscious says "Patience is the key to this phase" ...I just hope the next time I login to blogger I have something good to post unlike this one .....